It could just be that I need to break some bad habits in the way I think and react. Why is it that I still feel a pin prick of sadness and envy when I find out someone is expecting?
At other times, the difference in age between my two sons, although convenient at times, can be a painful reminder. Or...I may see a larger family and wonder if sub/infertility will continue to be a part of our story as we possibly attempt to conceive again.
Don't get me wrong, I am so very happy with the blessings I have. The majority of the time, I do not think about these things. I am attempting to live in the moment and not get ahead of myself. I know God is taking care of me, and I try to abandon these anxieties into His hands.
I am not sure what I expected, but I guess it makes sense that the pain is always with you somewhat. I have heard before that even after "overcoming" infertility, the effects remain. I think it may have been This Cross I Embrace who mentioned this.
Have any of you experienced the painful scars of infertility even after adopting or conceiving? Have you heard of others who have?
