Whoa! I'm Not Alone!

I guess I should have done a small Google search before beginning this blog, for I am most certainly NOT alone in my struggles.  There are a lot more Catholic women who are experiencing infertility out there than I imagined.  Since most of the Catholic friends I know have been blessed with multiple children or at least stories of how easily they become pregnant, I felt as though my situation was fairly unique.  It is with relief and also sadness that I found out that it must not be.  It makes me wonder about the numbers of women who do not have blogs--who have remained silent in their suffering.  How many? 

Before today, I was one of them.  I am not sure where this blog is going.  Maybe I will decide to make it my own private journal.  I just know that I have always done well when I get my thoughts and feelings out through writing.  It makes the whirling, circular thought patterns halt.  I can say, "There.  I acknowledged that emotion--that point.  Now I can move on to the next."  Otherwise, I just get stuck sometimes.  At any rate, I know that getting this out is good for me right now.  After I get it all out, maybe it will be enough.  Or...perhaps the material will continue to come. 

Maybe I will join the Catholic Infertility group on Yahoo! groups.  Maybe that will be the outlet and bonding that I desire.  Only God knows.  I should try to take this day by day.  I don't have to commit to anything, which is nice.

God, I will go where you lead me.